pls forgive my lack of control...
I just recover my mood recently... although i still been terrible mood... but at least getting better... i did promise to myself, this is the last time and i never do that anymore! NEVER!
I keep control myself, so that i wont do something harm to anyone or something regretfulness. But i failed. I keep hurting for those who around me including myself.... i know this time i having a big problem... i dont know how to solve it, even i start failed to manage my mood and my mind. Its really gave me a big impact to finish my art work, i really enjoyed my task for this semester and i put alot of effort to it in the beginning.... but i dont know why i will give up and finally i have done something shit in final.... people using 1 weeks to finish it, but me? i just using 21 hours to finish the stupid shit art work and submit... i really really regret for tat but its too late.... i really hate myself! i too selfish!!
I just keep thinking something evil... but i m not lose my wits, i m still rational! and i also know that the Jesus Christ is looking at me.... tats y i control! It's damn suffer... i dont know what happened.... sometimes my hand freaking shake... its really frightened... will run away when its happend or hiding myself at somewhere else and i dont dare to tell anyone... including my family, cos i dont think anyone can help me.... cried without any reason and hiding myself in room... i scare to let anyone know that i having a problem.... but i really dont know what happened to me.... i worry people will treat me as abnormal person. i m lost till i cant hear any voice from god, but devil. So i keep control... cos i know who i m.... and i know who i belong to...
keep controlling myself....
i swear.... this is my last time... i really not going to do that anymore....
give me some time.... i need time.... i know i having a depression disease, but i know i will be equal to it... cos i know what i have done and i wont be defeated!!
I just recover my mood recently... although i still been terrible mood... but at least getting better... i did promise to myself, this is the last time and i never do that anymore! NEVER!
I keep control myself, so that i wont do something harm to anyone or something regretfulness. But i failed. I keep hurting for those who around me including myself.... i know this time i having a big problem... i dont know how to solve it, even i start failed to manage my mood and my mind. Its really gave me a big impact to finish my art work, i really enjoyed my task for this semester and i put alot of effort to it in the beginning.... but i dont know why i will give up and finally i have done something shit in final.... people using 1 weeks to finish it, but me? i just using 21 hours to finish the stupid shit art work and submit... i really really regret for tat but its too late.... i really hate myself! i too selfish!!
I just keep thinking something evil... but i m not lose my wits, i m still rational! and i also know that the Jesus Christ is looking at me.... tats y i control! It's damn suffer... i dont know what happened.... sometimes my hand freaking shake... its really frightened... will run away when its happend or hiding myself at somewhere else and i dont dare to tell anyone... including my family, cos i dont think anyone can help me.... cried without any reason and hiding myself in room... i scare to let anyone know that i having a problem.... but i really dont know what happened to me.... i worry people will treat me as abnormal person. i m lost till i cant hear any voice from god, but devil. So i keep control... cos i know who i m.... and i know who i belong to...
keep controlling myself....
i swear.... this is my last time... i really not going to do that anymore....
give me some time.... i need time.... i know i having a depression disease, but i know i will be equal to it... cos i know what i have done and i wont be defeated!!
3 compliments??:
why didnt u look for me?
so are u ok so far?
lei ming
depression is caused from our attachment towards sumthing....
sometimes keeping things in urself will keep u depressed.....really, i experienced it before, by speaking to others, soemtimes u will hav a different opinion towards things...u will see things differently... i can lend my ear if u wan....hehe ^^
for the devil, i will kiss his ass to the sky.....
lol...
not kiss, its kick....sorry..lol
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